Lately I’ve been feeling a little… well, burnt out.
Burnout is certainly something that I’ve experienced before–I get overwhelmed by the amount of things going on in my life and my effort to continue doing all them leaves me pretty exhausted. And, if you read my post about Finding Balance a few months ago, you’ll know that I’ve had a lot going on in my life this year.
And honestly? I’m pretty sure that I only have myself to blame.
One thing that I’ve recently realized I have a habit of doing is sucking my enjoyment out of anything I grow to love. I’ve done it so many times that I’m surprised it’s taken me this long to figure it out. You see, I’m not just conscious of ways to aid in my success, and I’m not just focused on the future. I am obsessed. I neglect the present and sacrifice enjoyment just in case it might increase my chances in some way.
One of the ways I do this is to not let myself “simply” enjoy something. How will this benefit me in the future? How can I turn this into a marketable skill? How does this affect my personal brand?
You can see how this line of thinking might contribute to a little bit of burnout.
I love writing. I love comic books and I love hockey and I love travelling. I think maybe I just need to keep everything separate, just for a little bit. The rest of my school career definitely isn’t going to get easier, and what comes after that won’t either. So for right now, I think it’s just in my best interest if I just take a break, and start to enjoy things for the sake of enjoying them.
It doesn’t necessarily mean working less, or working less hard, but I need to be realistic with myself and take it easy, just for a little while. And I think, right now, that means taking a break from blogging. Give myself time to recharge the batteries.
After all, I’m still obsessed with my future. And I think taking a step back is the only thing that will help me make the next step forward.